![]() | You are viewing Log in Create a LiveJournal Account Learn more | Explore LJ: Life Entertainment Music Culture News & Politics Technology |
|
|||||||
|
sky rockets and boats i give up, i can't fight this. i'm tired. i promised i'd love you for a long time, i can't help but keep my promise. i'll love you for the rest of my life and just get over the idea that its never going to be as good as when i kissed you i know you don't feel the same i'm done i don't deserve to feel like this. i was just trying to be a nice guy hey did you know i once prayed? yeah...ME! i don't know who too but they answered, really they did. i asked for something, one single kiss that i was willing to suffer any pain for...and i got a whole bunch of them! know i guess i'm paying the debt....thing is if i'd known it would feel like, i would have kissed her still and three times more, even if the was three times worse. oh yeah...what i meant to say was.......ow lol need a ship, i'd ask her to run away with me if i thought she'd say yes. who knows, maybe i'll just get a pet turtle i like being emo here, then i don't have to be in the real world. mmm cearal, bah! who am i kidding? i'm no emo, i'm just REALLY upset, but i have the bestest friend i ever did know and i still wear the ring to prove it see you later kids Current mood: crushed.Current music: kill- jimmy eat world. i am a bad person did you have one of those dreams, i lived mine once and know its all i dream. i'm gonna make my own life better, it starts with a tattoo next week (marvel logo!) this week i get my provisional licence to drive then i'm outta here lol nah, i'm here for a little longer. my plan is going great, lost some people along the way but they're welcome to join me again. it's taking slightly longer than i thought, but then i keep spending my money rather than saving it *tut i kept all this a secret in the hope i could reveal it in one big surprise, but no one stuck around. maybe i'll find someone new to sail away with...know anyone? i don't know whats going to happen, i can't wait to find out... I'm sorry I have to say but it looks like your sad Your smile is gone; I noticed it bad Current mood: waiting.Current music: blink 182: heres your letter. i'm going to go the most incredible adventure, i will run far away from home. set sail into the sea and not come back for the longest time. Current mood: excited.Current music: a littles enough. k, so i don't know about any of your guys who may read this' homelands but in my particular area of england snow like this isn't too common these days. i guess snow doesn't really matter to people anymore, but it tends to bring out the best in the good...and me being somewhat of a good guy i play in the snow...as you can see http://i64.photobucket.com/albums/h193/e http://i64.photobucket.com/albums/h193/e i used to spend a lot of time alone, so much so that i got used to it...then i met my friend again, she reminded me that i can't survive on my own, not even with snow angels. and although i do like being on my own sometimes, i look forward to each time i see people who know me...friends are great. Current music: far away. nickelback. mmm-kay, decided to be a little less self pitying. we're still friends which means the world to me, it really does. and i'll be fine once i stop wanting to be with her, which could take a while but oh well lol i'll always love her, but it can in a friends way if it has to be. not going to get as down anymore i think. other notes: i'll be publishing a comic soon if anyone is interested she's just like lauren, use me to get over your ex then leave me when you realise its not working. she isn't even glad we got some time together. i want to wake up with her again so much, i want to kiss her and i want her to want me to and want me too. (clever word play)i love cheering them up, but when i got down they weren't there for me like i was there for them, they just left. i love her i hate to my very bones, waking up alone. i mean nothing to the only person i want to mean something to, and she doesn't care. she loves someone else who is a milion worse than me, but she doesn't want to be with him coz he sucks and thats what upsets her, because she can't be with him. she couldn't care less that she's not with me. i think i'm upset a little. brightside: i now know how to skateboard Current mood: crushed.Current music: finch: what it is to burn. i'm at a real low, she hates me because i'm not my old self and i'm not because she hates me. it only gets to me so much because i love her. i miss her |
|||||||